The Daily Moper

     

The Daily Moper 

       I have a habit of moping around. I question why things happen the way that they do as if continuing to mope will change things.
       I recently started reading a book called The Power of Now. I find the book inspiring even though my brother and mom may not like the book. It's not necessarily the easiest read in the world but it has slowly been revealed to me what the "power of now" means. Basically it is all about focusing on the present moment; duh! That becoming secure, and happy in what is happening right now is the only way we should be living, but lets face it, most of us aren't!
      I seem to be worrying about what could have been different in the past or daydreaming about my future. What a life right? Today I did exactly that for about 4 hours and then realized what I was doing and said NO!
      Being a Christian, I have been taught to have faith in God's plan and I'm not. I question Him as if He has no idea what he's doing, but what if I didn't? What if whatever happened in my life I said, today is just today? Right now, in this moment I feel (whatever way I'm feeling), but I want to be happy, so.....I'm going to do something that makes me happy.
      It should be that simple. Instead, I mope and watch a cheezy drama series on Netflix to get my mind off my problems knowing that it's not going to make me any happier. I think it's time we stop moping and learn to live happily and free.

Until Next Time,

Victoria

I AM that I AM.

I AM that I AM.

        Growing up my faith in God never wavered. It was so strong I never questioned or cared about the judgments created by society or made by others. I was secure and confident that I was a child of God and that’s all that mattered. I never felt the need to explain myself to others and I never asked others to explain themselves to me. I knew who they were because I was so secure in who I was.
         Somewhere in the mix of things I lost this confidence. I started to lose sight of who I was; a reflection of God, and as a result I lost sight of that in others as well.  I then began to judge others, sometimes feeling it was justified by their actions.
        There is no justification. How can you justify judging God’s children? My judging others was a reflection of my loss of confidence in who I was. I apologize to anyone who I may have hurt or offended in the past for making accusations whether I verbalized them or not. I want to see clearly again who I am, and who all of you are. We are a reflection of God and it is time I start expressing that again.



Until Next Time,

Victoria