Manifest your Dreams

Manifestation of your Dreams

I am what many people consider a "dreamer." In other words, I have high aspirations. The things that I speak of and hope for are not just a dream because I plan on making each one a reality. Yes, I struggle with obstacles each and everyday. I struggle with negative thoughts; the "I cant's." But I CAN!! I don't necessarily know if everything I want to do in life will manifest but I do believe that if it is something I believe I want then I should go after it NOW. If it doesn't manifest I really believe my trying will lead me to something better. Life isn't full of obstacles, it's full of adventures. No one likes puzzles that are already solved, it takes the fun out of creating the final image. Take your time and enjoy putting together the pieces of your beautiful life. 

Desperation

Desperation

     I woke up this morning thinking it was all a nightmare. I would text him, we would talk, say we love each other and by this evening we'd be sitting on the couch with the tv on talking and laughing like we always do. But it wasn't a dream. My nightmare was a reality and I lost the only man I wanted to spend everyday of my life with.
     It's not always easy to think rationally when you feel everything in your life is uncertain, and if you're like me, you don't like the feeling of losing control. After graduating from college I did just that. Everything was so uncertain, exciting, but uncertain and I chose to control the one thing I was certain of; my relationship. My boyfriend and I both did this and it became unhealthy. Now I'm just sitting in my room wondering if what I did was right. Thinking, how in the world could it be okay to not be with the man I love. I don't know. I'm uncertain of everything.