Thursday, September 1, 2016

Desperation



Desperation

     I woke up this morning thinking it was all a nightmare. I would text him, we would talk, say we love each other and by this evening we'd be sitting on the couch with the tv on talking and laughing like we always do. But it wasn't a dream. My nightmare was a reality and I lost the only man I wanted to spend everyday of my life with.
     It's not always easy to think rationally when you feel everything in your life is uncertain, and if you're like me, you don't like the feeling of losing control. After graduating from college I did just that. Everything was so uncertain, exciting, but uncertain and I chose to control the one thing I was certain of; my relationship. My boyfriend and I both did this and it became unhealthy. Now I'm just sitting in my room wondering if what I did was right. Thinking, how in the world could it be okay to not be with the man I love. I don't know. I'm uncertain of everything.
   

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