Manifest your Dreams

Manifestation of your Dreams

I am what many people consider a "dreamer." In other words, I have high aspirations. The things that I speak of and hope for are not just a dream because I plan on making each one a reality. Yes, I struggle with obstacles each and everyday. I struggle with negative thoughts; the "I cant's." But I CAN!! I don't necessarily know if everything I want to do in life will manifest but I do believe that if it is something I believe I want then I should go after it NOW. If it doesn't manifest I really believe my trying will lead me to something better. Life isn't full of obstacles, it's full of adventures. No one likes puzzles that are already solved, it takes the fun out of creating the final image. Take your time and enjoy putting together the pieces of your beautiful life. 

Desperation

Desperation

     I woke up this morning thinking it was all a nightmare. I would text him, we would talk, say we love each other and by this evening we'd be sitting on the couch with the tv on talking and laughing like we always do. But it wasn't a dream. My nightmare was a reality and I lost the only man I wanted to spend everyday of my life with.
     It's not always easy to think rationally when you feel everything in your life is uncertain, and if you're like me, you don't like the feeling of losing control. After graduating from college I did just that. Everything was so uncertain, exciting, but uncertain and I chose to control the one thing I was certain of; my relationship. My boyfriend and I both did this and it became unhealthy. Now I'm just sitting in my room wondering if what I did was right. Thinking, how in the world could it be okay to not be with the man I love. I don't know. I'm uncertain of everything.
   

The Daily Moper

     

The Daily Moper 

       I have a habit of moping around. I question why things happen the way that they do as if continuing to mope will change things.
       I recently started reading a book called The Power of Now. I find the book inspiring even though my brother and mom may not like the book. It's not necessarily the easiest read in the world but it has slowly been revealed to me what the "power of now" means. Basically it is all about focusing on the present moment; duh! That becoming secure, and happy in what is happening right now is the only way we should be living, but lets face it, most of us aren't!
      I seem to be worrying about what could have been different in the past or daydreaming about my future. What a life right? Today I did exactly that for about 4 hours and then realized what I was doing and said NO!
      Being a Christian, I have been taught to have faith in God's plan and I'm not. I question Him as if He has no idea what he's doing, but what if I didn't? What if whatever happened in my life I said, today is just today? Right now, in this moment I feel (whatever way I'm feeling), but I want to be happy, so.....I'm going to do something that makes me happy.
      It should be that simple. Instead, I mope and watch a cheezy drama series on Netflix to get my mind off my problems knowing that it's not going to make me any happier. I think it's time we stop moping and learn to live happily and free.

Until Next Time,

Victoria

I AM that I AM.

I AM that I AM.

        Growing up my faith in God never wavered. It was so strong I never questioned or cared about the judgments created by society or made by others. I was secure and confident that I was a child of God and that’s all that mattered. I never felt the need to explain myself to others and I never asked others to explain themselves to me. I knew who they were because I was so secure in who I was.
         Somewhere in the mix of things I lost this confidence. I started to lose sight of who I was; a reflection of God, and as a result I lost sight of that in others as well.  I then began to judge others, sometimes feeling it was justified by their actions.
        There is no justification. How can you justify judging God’s children? My judging others was a reflection of my loss of confidence in who I was. I apologize to anyone who I may have hurt or offended in the past for making accusations whether I verbalized them or not. I want to see clearly again who I am, and who all of you are. We are a reflection of God and it is time I start expressing that again.



Until Next Time,

Victoria